Worried

I know this is a slave blog, at least for now, but it is also a family blog. There is an issue that I just need to get off my chest and think aloud about. Everyone knows I am very close to my grandfather. He is the light of my life, the first man I ever really loved. Around him, I am the Italian Princess. Back in February, he was in a head on collision with a drunk driver and has been in a rehab hospital ever since. I just spoke to him and he didn't sound too good. His speech was slurred, he couldn't remember anything from the month around the accident, he didn't remember if he called me for my birthday, he was getting confused, he called me by the wrong number (I am PG#1, and he called me PG#4, family joke is he numbers the kids so he doesn't have to remember names, but he has never forgotten numbers, ever). He couldn't remember which of my uncles picked him up for a BBQ on Sunday or where he went. I am worried and scared. I really don't know what I would do without Grandpa. He kept the family together when Grandma passed, even though they were no longer married, he still loved her until the day she took her last breath. I just don't know what I would do. I don't like to think about the possibility, even though I know it is inevitable. There is still so much he has left to teach all of us. Even though they were no longer married, Grandpa taught me what it is to really love someone, no matter what happens, to really love someone. He was the first one to encourage me to enlist, to marry a military Man, to follow Him all over the world, to support Him. He was the first one I would call with good news. If something happens to Grandpa, I don't want to think about it. I got off the phone with him and cried, the man I spoke to didn't seem like my Grandpa. He is different, he has changed. I am so scared, so worried. I don't want to think about the last two times one of my grandparents went into the hospital. All of this because of a drunk driver who hit his car. I am so scared, I can't imagine a world where I can't just call Grandpa, a world where i can't ask his opinion or get his thoughts on something. I am so worried. Worried for Grandpa, worried for the family, for my mom and her siblings. I am worried about what it would do to them if something happened. I am scared about going on without him, worried about not having him here. I just don't know what to do. I want my grandpa back, the grandpa I knew, the grandpa I grew up with....

Slave Bed Time

What do other slaves do before bed? This was one of the first slave rituals/routines my sister helped me come up with and put into place. Usually, if I am not in Master's playroom, but He is "putting me to bed" I will close my eyes for a few minutes and focus my thoughts on Master, thinking of my service to Him, my love for Him. After that, I will strip down to proper slave attire, if I am not already wearing it, adding the cuffs I wear to bed, chaining my left ankle to the bed. Touching my collar, I will fall asleep thinking of Master, hoping to give myself Master filled dreams.
Of course, usually before bed, I will take a slave shower, if I have time, and if I do not have time, I will take it when I wake up. A slave shower includes all grooming Master has come to expect of me, washing my hair, face scrub, all the usual shower things, lol.
I was just wondering what other slaves might do before bed.
~S

The Non-Rookie Slave

Since my sister has dubbed herself the rookie slave, I figured I would call my intro the opposite, but not make myself sound like a slut, lol. I am M, or Bright Eyes. I have been involved in this lifestyle as a slave in one way or another for 16 years, 11 of them with the same Dominant, my Master, whose collar I have been officially wearing for almost 3/4 of that time. I was officially collared s a Gorean slave a little over a year ago. I am what I call a reformed pain slut. At one point in my life, I needed the physical pain of the whip to feel anything, to have the pleasure people said came with sex. Now, while i do enjoy the pain occasionally, I do not need it to hurt to be able to feel the pleasure any longer. I can still orgasm from the pain, but I do not need it any more. I am the more lesbian of the two of Master's slaves and I do have my own girlfriend whom I love as well. Since I have been involved in this lifestyle for so long, I know the routines, rituals and chores I need to follow, my biggest issue is implementing them and following through. This is also the first time since marrying Master that I have been able to actually have a playroom set up for His enjoyment. I have my own principles and beliefs where BDSM is involved and i fully intend to live up to them, instilling them into the different aspects of my lifestyle with Master. Because I have been under Master's collar for so long, the rules for me and my behavior are not as strict. I think I might need to attempt to enforce the more strict rules my sister has for at least a little while. Master has a job that takes Him far away from home a lot so I have become complacent lately in my role and position within our family and dynamic. I have become too comfortable with the way I live out my submission. I need to get back to the way it used to be, how diligent I was in the past to my slave duties and my household duties. I hope that I can get myself back on track so I can be an example and a mentor for my sister as she continues to learn, grow and develop along the way. What right do I have to think I can teach her the ways of the slavegirl when my own attitude has drifted away from the attitude of a slavegirl? This will be a journey for both me and my sister, one that, hopefully, ends on a positive note.

Drive-By Chores/Ritual

Before starting to figure out things for work over the summer, there is something more pressing to work out, tonight if possible. Since Master's slaves live in different parts of the country, and His job takes Him all over, there is the occasion where He may do a "drive by" when He is within a 3 hour drive from one of His girls.
So, I have decided my first "job" is to come up with "Drive By Chores/Rituals." So far, this is what i have come up with.
Chores:
Have a bag ready for travel to Master with clean clothes, cuffs, small selection of play collars, a few of Master's favorite tools, condoms, and white board/markers.
Make sure Master's playroom is clean before leaving so I can truthfully tell Him it is clean.
Print out two maps with two different routes from home to the general area Master will be.
Gather medical bag with at least 24 hours worth of medications.
Be sure purse has everything needed, hard candy, wallet, whistle
Check tires, oil, gas

Rituals:
Slave shower and grooming


~S~

Rookie Slave

Hi, I am S, I am the rookie slave in the family, still new to the lifestyle, till trying to find my way in the sometimes confusing world of BDSM. I am still figuring out my "slave chores" and how to add them into my every day chores.
I have been very lucky to have been born with the slave genetics. Master is my first and only true Master, it is as if I have been born to serve Him and only Him. Master is a legacy within this lifestyle and He is patiently teaching me the way He likes to be served.
I do not know if this is the case with all "plural slave" families, but it is almost as if my sister and I were made to compliment one another's service to Master. Where one is lacking, the other has an almost abundance of skills. I have learned very quickly in some areas and in others, I need to keep working to improve.
For now, I am going to focus on developing my slave chores and rituals for the summer time. During the summer months, I work at a summer camp for special needs children who have different degrees of hearing loss.
Due to my summer job's retrictions, my slave chores and rituals will be different over the summer, so new ones need to be created while still living up to my current chores and responsibilities.
This is the story of my journey as I develop new routines, rituals and chores as I continue to grow in my service and submission to Master and learn from my sister.